losing my memory, losing my equilibrium, losing time and energy and losing my interest and joy in the work. Even worse, it is the kind of job that bleeds into everything else so I have been losing some of the general joy in the spaces between work and home. Getting irritable and snappy when the girls didn't move fast enough or pick up after themselves. Getting even more than irritable and worse, whiny, when Dad called for something.
Anyway, it seemed to all come to a head last week when I worked a whole bunch of overtime and was crying at traffic lights over patients and didn't even seem to be able to finish the paper work or work very efficiently. enough.
enough. enough. enough already.
I remember when I was first in orientation for this job, I met a woman who had been a hospice nurse for years. She also had children but was doing hospice work part time. She looked at me, when she realized I was going to be case managing and doing so full time and she said, "oh... lots of self care. Lots of self care"
Seemed kinda woowoo at the time. I actually don't mind woowoo but it tends to be expensive and something for those people who have more time than I do. But, it appears she was right. So I'm trying it
I will cry more for my patients and allow myself to be emotional. Even if it will be uncomfortable for me or the people around me. I will do yoga, and write in my journal and put more art and color in my life. I will sleep more and drink more water and tea. I will laugh with my children more. I will put more woo woo ceremony in my day. self care. self care. ;-)
Anyway, it seemed to all come to a head last week when I worked a whole bunch of overtime and was crying at traffic lights over patients and didn't even seem to be able to finish the paper work or work very efficiently. enough.
enough. enough. enough already.
I remember when I was first in orientation for this job, I met a woman who had been a hospice nurse for years. She also had children but was doing hospice work part time. She looked at me, when she realized I was going to be case managing and doing so full time and she said, "oh... lots of self care. Lots of self care"
Seemed kinda woowoo at the time. I actually don't mind woowoo but it tends to be expensive and something for those people who have more time than I do. But, it appears she was right. So I'm trying it
I will cry more for my patients and allow myself to be emotional. Even if it will be uncomfortable for me or the people around me. I will do yoga, and write in my journal and put more art and color in my life. I will sleep more and drink more water and tea. I will laugh with my children more. I will put more woo woo ceremony in my day. self care. self care. ;-)
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Don't forget to lean on your friends too. Through thick and thin, sick and sin... I am here for you. I'll hold the straw, or make the tea. I'll listen endlessly. You've stood firmly in my corner for years. I'm prepared to do the same.
And
If all else fails - I'll get woowoo with you.
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